Archive | May 2012

♥ Melanoma Support Group

Help spread the word…if you or someone you know has Melanoma, tell them about the Melanoma Support Group here in Columbus, Ohio.  ♥

 

♥ Genetic Testing For P16 Mutation

On Tuesday, May 8th,  I had my blood drawn for my genetic testing for the mutated P16 gene. I’m already in the “special” high risk group because I’ve had 2 primary Melanoma’s. If I test positive for this mutated gene, it bumps up my likelihood of having more primary Melanoma’s as well as recurrent ones, not to mention I would be placed in the “high risk” group for Pancreatic cancer to boot. I’m a tough cookie, but man do I need a break from all this cancer crap. If I do test postivie for this mutation, then it’s possible my brother and his daughters, as well as my 3 babies carry this mutation. I won’t know anything for about 2 very long weeks.

 

♥ Not My Day

Yesterday was just not my day!! I went to my dentist for my 6 month cleaning, like a good girl. When she looked at my x-rays, she saw what appeared to be “extra roots” from the tooth I had the root canal done in January. Which means I have to see the Endontist on Monday to have him re-evaluate. When he did my root canal in January, he did find 1 extra root, but now it appears he may have missed a couple more. Leave it to me to be unusual in having “extra roots”. Then when my dentist did the oral exam, she spotted a “red spot” on the back of my throat. So now I have to go back and see her in two weeks to see if the red spot goes away. If it’s still there on the 30th, then I have to see an Oral Surgeon to determine if it is nothing or if it is something that needs to be biopsied. Since I’m high risk for more Melanomas, including Mucosal Melanomas, my dentist is watching me closely as well as the rest of my docs.  Most likely it’s nothing…but as she put it, “it’s a spot that shouldn’t be there”.

 Then when I went to fill my script at the pharmacy, I was informed that my doc wrote out my script incorrectly. I’m now waiting for my doc to call in the correct script. Yesterday was all about Murphy’s law.

 

♥ Some Days…

Today has just been one of those days.

Between missing my dad and missing the beach, I’m struggling to put a smile on my face today.  I guess since my dad’s death, I’ve wanted nothing but to head to the beach and find my center again.  I need to hear the sound of the waves crash to the shore, the smell of the lake (Lake Michigan), and feel the sand beneath me. 

The song from one of my favorite artists, Peter Gabriel…”In Your Eyes”, has at least taken the edge off of today. 

Love I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

All my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes

Love, I don’t like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

And all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes