Wanting to be with you has become an obsession. You make my world go round and I adore you with all my heart.
My biopsy came back being mildly dysplastic with clear margins. Another bad mole bites the dust.
The more bad moles removed the better. Dysplastic means the mole cellular structure is changing. These dysplastic moles are the ones that tend to become cancerous. Clear margins mean they removed it all. I have had 28 moles removed since October 2009. 2 were Melanoma’s, 13 were dysplastic, 1 was inconclusive, and 12 were normal.
I will be having my blood drawn soon for my genetic testing. I’m slightly antsy about this, but then I think about my kids and I know I am doing the right thing. My children ARE my universe.
I had 1 mole removed for biopsy and I have 3 moles that are being monitored, if they grow again they will have to be removed. My skin cancer doctor noticed several “new” moles around both my Melanoma scars. She looked at each mole and then took a picture of my abdomen showing all the moles. New moles that pop up around a Melanoma scar is not something you can ignore. Recurrent Melanoma is something I will always have to be careful of. Since I had a mole that came back inconclusive in the same vicinity, it is very important to stay ahead of the game.
Since my dad had Melanoma of the colon, my cancer doc thought it would be a good idea to have a Melanoma genetic test done. This test would help the doctors treat me in a more precise manner as well as be able to monitor future issues. If I am predisposed genetically, then the chances for my children are very high as well. I go back in 6 months and hopefully if all stays quiet I will be able to start a once a year program in 2013. Yea!!
My blood work came back showing my thyroid is low. So now that I am on thyroid medication, hopefully I will bounce back quickly. Damn, do I hate feeling so blah!!
I’ve been trying to slowly accept a dream I was having the morning my dad passed. I was literally in the middle of this dream when my brother called to give me the news of our dads passing. I seem to have this ability to sense, and feel those that I love and have a strong bond with. I also receive visits from those whom have crossed over, they come to me in my dreams.
The morning of my dads death, I was having a dream where I could feel my dads presence but I did not see him. The presence of my dad was so strong but so was the feeling that he was being taken away from me.
I will come to love this dream, but right now my heart is hurting.
This song will always remind me of my dad. Scott & I took a road trip in 1988 to visit dad after 13 years of not being able to have any contact with him. Dad was watching MTV with us and this song came on…I remember dad saying how much he loved this song. I love you dad and miss you so much. ♥♥